Whose Faulty Vision

I’m sorry that this is pretty much all I’ve been posting about lately. Assuming I have any readers left at all, I can’t imagine this has been of interest to you. But I’m a total emotional wreck right now, and having a place like this to vent is really helping me.

There’s a lot that I hate about the choices that Christmas made.

I hate the fact that she betrayed me.
I hate the fact that she kept it from me for so long.
I hate the fact that she told one of my friends about it before she told me.

But more than all of that, I think the thing I hate the most is the fact that she didn’t give me a chance. She had these concerns about our relationship for so long, and she only told me about them when it was too late. I really believe that if I’d known about her concerns sooner, if we’d been able to work on them together, that we might have been able to build something that would have lasted forever. But instead she kept it to herself until she decided on her own that there was no way for our relationship to deal with those concerns. She never gave me a chance.

I think that our relationship might have been able to survive all of the other bad choices that she made. But obviously, there was no way for it to survive this one.